Today we disconnected, emptied, and put away the hoses. We collected the various garden art and secured it in the shed, and put Rob's gravity lounger in the garage.
Yesterday we were both quite depressed, and spent some time talking about how it feels to be surrounded by people who actively want to vote for someone so dumb and mean-spirited.
But Rob's stage 4 cancer diagnosis this past spring put life in a different perspective for me. We've made it through 6 cycles of chemo, and are just beginning to move toward a more normal life again. The doctor's prognosis hasn't changed from the beginning: 3 to 12 years. Even though his blood work looks good, they simply can't predict how the remaining cancer cells will evolve.
You are alive until you die, and I want to make sure we take advantage of that time doing the things he wants to do. Physically, it's a new and different normal for him, and sometimes he gets depressed about this. But I think the more we can be out in nature, exploring, the more he will be able to put the cancer in the background to enjoy his time.
So we'll snuggle in for the dark season and celebrate the holidays, and then look forward to a new growing season and new places to enjoy.
Snuggling in for the dark season sounds comforting. I'm sorry to hear about Rob's diagnosis...it sounds like you have a healthy outlook. Winter is difficult for me, and your second paragraph makes it even more difficult. Hang in there.
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